Today could have been one of those days..... But I decided from the minute that I woke up that I would not stay in that 'I want to stay in my pyjamas' mood... I peeled & cut up some apple and banana for Elina's breakfast & sat with her singing & dancing at the table (I know, how naughty am I to sing at the table ha ha)... After dropping Elina at the crèche I went 'round to a mates to collect his rent... 2hours, a cup of tea, a cup of coffee and a great conversation later I'm feeling even stronger.... We always have intriguing chats, but this time he really started opening up about himself even more than usual, and I find myself having a really open conversation... Is it really that difficult to be open & honest about the way we're feeling ? I think a lot of barriers and worries we have about ourselves and others views of us are actually built by ourselves.....
Thomas wasn't feeling on top of the world today either, so once we'd had a spot of lunch I suggest a walk in the sunshine (after the down pours of this morning).... We head to a lake for a change (I need the water), and have a refreshing stroll.... We can hear an alarm from one of the factories nearby and it sounds exactly like the noise at the end of the ghost train, which accompanied the bat that used to fly down and spray water at you, that used to be at Fort Regent....
A message out of the blue reminds me how lucky I am to have my fairy princess.... A very special person who I have never met but who was there through my 2 miscariages.... Her journey to motherhood is an ongoing one, but one that is looking more and more positive and having some unlifting results.... I am sending her heaps of positive vibes and a truck load of that oh so special fairy dust that helped me have my Elina..... And hope that she will look up and see her own shooting star *~
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